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So, about two weeks ago, I interviews for this job I really, really wanted.  I wanted it from the description.  I wanted it while I was in the room interviewing.  I wanted it walking out of the office and back to my car.  I wanted it so much I didn't want to think about it. I didn't want to set myself up for disappointment if I didn't get it.  It's easier, most times, to not want things, than to want them and be disappointed.  At least it has been in my experience.

Anyway, I was supposed to hear about a decision at the beginning of this week.  Then, of course, Hurricane Sandy came through and while PA was pretty lucky as far as damage was concerned, most places were closed Monday and Tuesday and the place I interviewed didn't open back up until Thursday.  I sweated it out all day Thursday, figuring there was probably a lot to catch up on right after missing three days, but that if I didn't hear by Friday, I didn't get it.

I tried, I really tried to distract myself Friday from thinking about it, but by about two in the afternoon, I had convinced myself it wasn't going to happen.  It was too late in the day.  I hadn't gotten it and I was feeling pretty sorry for myself.  I let myself want something and this is what happens. 

So, I made plans with E and a friend to go see Wreck-it Ralph(It was pretty good, btw) when I missed thier call, and they didn't leave a message.  It was about four in the afternoon and I was sure.  Who calls to offer a job at the end of the business day?  No one.  You call to tell all the people who you didn't pick, Thanks, but No Thanks.  I tried to call back and didn't get an answer.  I felt sick and my heart was pounding.  I tried again.

And again.

And then I finally got through and thought I was going to have a heart attack in the front room my heart was pounding so hard when I got the job offer.  I had to tell myself, firmly, "You cannot cry on the phone to your new boss.  You can't.  Keep it together for just a couple minutes."

So, that's my story.  I start the week after next in a job I really, really wanted and in a profession I think I could really, really see myself liking.  It'll be a first in my adult life.

Date: 2012-11-03 08:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] flybynight00.livejournal.com
Congratulations!

Date: 2012-11-03 09:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nyagosstar.livejournal.com
Thanks! I feel so much better today than I did yesterday about the whole thing. Now I just have to chill for a week until I actually start :)

Date: 2012-11-04 01:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mikkeneko.livejournal.com
Yay! I'm so happy for you! Getting any job when you don't have one is cause for celebration; getitng one you really, really want is a life milestone!

Date: 2012-11-04 03:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nyagosstar.livejournal.com
Thanks! It's such a relief, that even though I don't start for a week, it's like everything is suddenly a million times better.

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